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On High-Level Performance: Mindfulness for Performers
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"Have you ever thought about attending a retreat," she asked.
"A retreat? Are you talking about going away and meditating?"
"Yes. I think it might help you," she said gently.
"I can't imagine sitting still for even one meditation, let alone for days of them. Do you think I could do that?"
"You don't need any special skills; you just need the willingness to sit with yourself as you are."
"I'm not sure I want to sit with myself as I am. That's the whole point of therapy, isn't it? To change who you are?"
"And that, in a nutshell, is why I'm suggesting you consider going on a retreat. It's less about changing yourself than about learning about change itself. As for you, you might begin to get comfortable with accepting life as it is, and with being with yourself, as you truly are."
Since that conversation, years ago, my life HAS changed. It's ironic that when you begin to work with life as it is, it suddenly appears to be dynamic. "Life as it is" turns out to be a continual process. Things that seemed stuck are actually in motion. Viewpoints that seemed solid are suddenly revealed to be fluid. Relationships can change. Of course we can, and do, change, but rather than trying to become someone else, we become expressions of the truth of ourselves.
Professionally, I'm an orchestra conductor, and this path has affected me in ways I could have never anticipated. It seems remarkable that sitting down and simply watching thoughts come and go, watching breaths enter and exit, watching emotions rise and fall, watching mental stories form and dissipate could all actually be so active and transformative. Over the years, I've come in contact people who are in many other professions, and they too are equally astonished that doing such a simple thing as sitting down and drawing attention to the breath would put them on such a remarkable path of discovery, courage and living with authenticity.
But that is the way of things.
Sitting still and observing allows space for something new to arise and for us to actually see it clearly. And seeing it is to connect to the creativity of this moment and to the spaciousness in which it arises.
The blue heron knows how to wait in silence. Being still is a skill worth learning.